A weekend to remember

So, as most people who know me already know, this weekend was a heck of a rollercoaster!

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  Grandma was admitted into the hospital
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  My brothers 30th birthday would have been this weekend had he not passed away in 1998
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  My cousin got married
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  My condo flooded
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  There is only 89 days till my wedding

I am exhausted!!

Last night I was the last to leave my grandma at the hospital. That was hard for me. A few posts ago, I was just thinking about how I need to realize that they are not as old as their age dictates. But now I see her there, lying in that bed, and I am remembering being that little girl having to go say goodbye to my great grandma before she passed away.

I know she is not at that point, its an infection and when they can figure out the cause, they can fix her, but at the same time, I cannot help but feel the same way.

On a brighter note, my legs are killing me! For good reasons. We danced at the reception till about 2am. It was a blast and my cousin looked amazing! Everybody had a great time and her and I even got a little boogy out of my grandpa!

Since Saturday night, we are a little more excited for our wedding. I loved that she did it traditional, it was amazing and very well done. We are a little less traditional and I think people will be a little amazed at what I have planned :)

I have to talk to the strata today about the condo flooding.

So, I am left with this thought:

With all that is going on around me, how am I not totally freaking out?? Then I remember something I was told after my parent split, again after my oma passed, after my brother passed and after every other trying thing that my family has been through;

God only gives us what we can handle

I know that I have not been the most religious person over the years, but there is a lot of hypocracy in organized religion as far as I am concerned, but I was raised with a belief system that still rings true to me. This is just another thing that my family is banding together to handle.