Monday, April 11, 2011

A little reflection

Life is interesting, frustrating, rewarding, dissappointing, enjoyable and aggravating all at the same time.

Did you ever have someone send you a text or an email that you cant stop looking back at?
Did you ever have someone say something to you that you just cant get out of your head?
Did you ever have a dream that rang a little too close to reality that has totally thrown you off?
Its frustrating...

Those moments are what shape us into who we are and guide us to make the decisions that we do.

Its that picture of an ex that you see somewhere on Facebook or in someone's house that
can either well up anger, hatered, guilt, love or longing.
Its the smirking glimpse you get from that old flame as you are walking into the grocery store that sets your mind racing.
Its the one song that you overhear in the car that passes you on the road that
can stir up the most emotional or primal memory.

What are our lives if not glimpses of the time that has already passed and what is to come? Memories make up most of what we are.

My mantra has always been:
"I do not regret anything in my life. Without the good and the bad,
I would not be who I am today, or in the places I am now."

I love reflecting back on my life and I do it often. I scroll through photos, old letters and notes, listen to old songs that take me back to a specific time or memory. I don't ever want to forget who I was, where I came from, what I have seen along the way, or the lessons that I have learned from the people that I met on that journey.

Life has good and bad. It has amazing and horrific. It has memorable and forgettable.

All I can hope for is that when I get to the end of it, I have done the best I could to be a good person, effect those I was supposed to, raise good children, be a good wife, mother, daughter, grand-daughter, cousin, neice and friend and have lived every day I have to the max.