Friday, July 30, 2010

Loving life today!!

Today I am absolutely loving life!
Great kids, an amazing man I will be married to in 99 days, and the big one.... I won the weight loss challenge I joined!!

Just feeling good and thought I would share!!

Taking the weekend off from blogging on here to concentrate on my family.


Thursday, July 29, 2010

Just sad

So about 4 months ago I went wedding dress shopping with one of my best friends, my mom and my daughter. I fell in love with a dress and ordered it. I have since lost 45 pounds and will probably lose another 20-30 by my wedding.

Yesterday I got a phonecall from the store saying that my dress was in. After telling the man on the phone that I had lost weight he said that I had to get in there asap so that we could try to get me into a smaller gown.
Well, today I got a call from someone else at the store, not realizing that I had already recieved a call, and I went over it with her as well. She told me that the dress I ordered is mine. I have to pay for it and have alterations done if I want it to fit.
I am pretty unhappy right now to say the least. Crying actually.


Tuesday, July 27, 2010


Nothing like a crappy start to a day!!

I am sick of this crap! I generally have to literally bite my tongue to keep from speaking what is actually on my mind, but it might not work today.

My patience is blown!

Today may be the day that I actually lose it....

Sunday, July 25, 2010

A great time... a.k.a.: enjoying whats in front of you

I have been admittedly crankly lately for numerous different reasons.

I have been unable to realize the small joys in front of my face and have instead been dwelling on the negative. For example: instead of recognizing that my grandparents are some amazing 73+ yr old people that are still capable of standing up for themselves and working like they are 43, I have been dwelling on the fact that they still work 5+ days a week, harder than most people, and are still expected to work another thing that they really don't want to (by no fault of their own, mind you).
What I have been missing out on is something I was reminded of today. I spent a lot of my time today working with my grandma in the kitchen. This was amazing! It took me back to when I was a child. I sure do miss spending that time with my grandma, helping her that way but this time I was doing most of the running up and down the stairs, wrangling kids out of the kitchen, running out to the BBQ because as I stated before she is getting older, but she is still amazing!

My grandparents are absolutely amazing!

Saturday, July 24, 2010

Another few days

So, a few days have gone by and have actually been pretty good. Friday was a day off so I got to spend the day with my son. He is a character for sure, he either makes you crack up laughing or pretty angry, but what 4yr old doesnt. We hung out with a gf and her kid and they got to play in the water for a few hours, so he was exhausted.

Today, my man was at work, so we took our time getting ready for the day, had a late breaky and went off to Costco. He hadnt been there before that he could remember, so it was very cool for him. We got a lot of organic products, which I have been focusing on, and tons of fruits and veggies. We headed back into town and got a 5lb case of some delicious blueberries from a family I know that grows them naturally (no sprays and such), and snacked on them all the way home, which actually took a while because of lake traffic.

A yummy new recipe for dinner called potato lasagne was awesome! Chillin now for the evening.

No real losing opportunities today. An all around good day for sure

Thursday, July 22, 2010

Feeling the need

So for today, even though I woke up in the worst way possible (migraine), I am trying to look at it in a positive light.

My son listened to every word said to him this morning and even kissed my forehead to attempt to "kiss it better" before he walked out the door with his dad and off for another day at daycare.

I got the knowing look over his shoulder as my man followed him out the door that said "I love you, feel better".

I arrived at work with painkillers and breakfast in hand and after a few hours I am feeling quite a bit better (I can actually turn my head now).

Work wise, the day is off to an interesting start, but everything seems to be falling into place nicely.

I will write more as the day proceeds.

So, its now almost 2pm and I am done with this day! Stupid question after stupid question and I am done.
This headache is not going away and only seems to be getting worse. I am really looking forward to bed tonight.

On a lighter note, I am really looking forward to the wedding and cannot believe it is in 107 days! It seems to be coming so quickly! Very cool. Mom and I made some choices last weekend on color and decoration and I think it will be wonderful!

I am really missing my little girl who is with her dad for the majority of the summer. It will be fun to do more wedding stuff with her when she gets back!

About to make dinner and thought I would just letcha know that my headache is gone, my son is playing a game, my hunny is still at work and the kitchen is clean. Not a bad end to a not so good day.

Chat to you soon!

Wednesday, July 21, 2010

First one

Well, here I go. I am 28. I feel like I am finally catching up in actual age to how I have felt for so long. I am getting married in 4 months to one of the most amazing men I have ever known and am overly excited to do so. I am currently in the process of dropping a significant amount of weight before my wedding. I in no way want to be skinny; I want to be healthy.
I have 2 kids who are a constant cause of laughter, stress, love, amazement and anger.
I have been at my curent employer for 4 years. This is a daily reminder that I am not doing all I can for my family. I have become too comfortable in this position even though daily I am reminded that I cannot possibly stay there.
We bought our first place 3 years ago. This is a great first place. However, it is a house that is not really a home for any of us. It is a place that we sleep nightly and have to go back to everyday because we dont have a real house.
Reading back on this I realize that this may come across as cinical, but what it is, I think, is realistic.
I am in no way unhappy with my position in life! I love my life. I just want more.